A Chaotic Mind

It always happens in life of a person that he gets into the past…But I believe I am more of a nostalgic person…Coz what all is in my mind is Memories ‘n’ Memories… Sometimes it’s me and sometimes few things which makes me crawl back into this world of Nostalgia.. Like the song “Jaane Kyun” from Dostana, whenever I hear it I go back it in my first few days in Mumbai. Every other thing like old pics from college makes me feel the same (This reminds me : Few days back I lost all my pics right from the start of the college till date from desktop coz of a severe virus  and me great don’t even have a backup of it..) Well summarizing I would say I am a man who loves to be in his past…and all credit goes to all of my dear friends who made all my these days extra special ,so that I can cherish them lifelong.

Last two weeks were one of the toughest I’ve ever seen in my life...Saturday 2nd October night saw Anjaana Anjaani with friends and Sunday 3rd October I woke up with fever and that started it all…I had dengue…. Initial few diagnosis said it just as a viral fever….Finally went home on Thursday and then it was all my Mom who did it for me…Doc had suggested to have high calories meals as dengue often burns up the calories and blood platelet count goes down rapidly and then follows severe weakness and muscle Ache.. But mom with her care and love just made me get over it in just 3-4 days...Then the routine checkup and others things to follow and I got back to office after a 2 week break on 19 October ‘Tuesday… Well this is again one of the countless selfless deeds mom does for us…So don’t want to wait for Mother’s day or any other special day...Just want to say you make my every day special…Love you mom….. Wish I could do even 1/3rd of things you’ve done for me…...

छोटी छोटी चितराई यादें, बिछी हुई है लम्हों की लॉन  में ....... नंगे पैर उन पर चलते चलते इतने दूर आ गये कि अब भूल गये है, जूते कहां उतारे थे। एड़ी नाजुक थी जब आये थे और नाजुक ही रहेगी जब तक ये खट्टी मीठी यादें इन्हें गुदगुदाती रहेगी सच अब भूल गये है जूते कहां उतारे थे, पर लगता है कि अब उनकी जरूरत नहीं है।

One of my fav tracks....Album : Meteora...Feat : Linkin Park This song says a lot!!! I'm tired of being what you want me to be Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface I don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes Every step that I take is another mistake to you I've become so numb I can't feel you there Become so tired so much more aware I'm becoming this all I want to do, Is be more like me and be less like you Can't you see that you're smothering me? Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control? Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart right in front of you Every step that I take is another mistake to you And every second I waste is more than I can take I've become so numb I can't feel you there Become so tired so much more aware I'm becoming this all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you And I know I may end up failing too Bu...

It's been a while since i m in gurgaon..d biggest n unpleasent change of my lyf..the only thing dat keeps me moving z that i can visit my home frequently..this z for d first time i m penning down of me being in gurgaon.. Lyf here z a lot diff..i wud say lyf here sucks big time 4 me..here i m into a fixed routine..the same getting up..see myself wid my wierd hairs in d morning..try n b a bit less weird..be in office..n those daily things..well my day alwayz starts wid a followup..followup 4 d time when my cab wud b there 2 pick me up..and almost ends up with followups wid d same cab to commute back to my room.. Lyf here is quite contrary from that of mumbai..one cannot b on streets at night coz of least amount of public transport.. Sometimes i feel you are a nobody if you don't own a private vehicle here..it's quite difficult to survive without key of it in ur pocket... I alwayz miss that essence n feel of mumbai..still i m a diehard optimistic..lyf z got something in st...

Two special M's for me...One is the season and other is one of the places i adore the most.. Just a week since monsson has really started in mumbai...but it has gone all guns blazing ...Usually it takes me 1:30 hrs to reach from office to my place using the company transport,but that day it took around 3.30 hrs for the same,courtesy Heavy rain and flooded mumbai.... Well one thing z very special about mumbai's monsoon,when it starts it goes on and on..don't know from where does this much water comes down!! And still at end of every monsoon we hear that there might be water shortage this year too... Mumbai monsoon will alwayz be so special for me coz thats the season in which i arrived in mumbai for the first time...it was wet everywhere...had heard a lot about mumbai...had a unique picture in my mind too.. But the day when i landed at the mumbai central railway station, the picture was ought to change coz of what i saw,water logged at places,narrow streets n roads a...

Saturday 19 June...we went to a suburban shopping mall in mumbai,for the same thing as always...Window shopping and to get out of the weekend sleep.... Don't know what happened but that place was so crowded...we had something to eat in the food court..but the very next thing required , a place to sit and have that stuff was nowhere ,the place was jampacked...it felt lyk dis planet is shrinking.Thats why this average no of people per sq km is increasing.....and to make the matters worse was India vs Pak ODI...people were there to have glimpse of that too... Had to search a lot but couldn't find a place to be on..so started having the food stuff standing at a corner...but all that turned to a pleasure when the match turned hot..bhajji hammerred Aameer for a six..and it was all india...we won that match b 3 wick's....the roar in the crowd was like anything else...That moment had thrill throguh my body..and as always i again felt PROUD TO BE AN INDIAN!!!!

Even i don't know when it would be .......the day when i'll be moving back from mumbai...but it's already started feeling that i am parting from something very important.Is it the fear of being in a new place or is it being away from mumbai and bunch of my swt frns... Lyf changes like anything.